TO BE OR NOT TO BE
To be or not to be a writer.
This has been the hardest question for me.
Should I continue with my pursuit?
Or step away and claim defeat?
One book written.
One book sold.
It dances around on Amazon and Nook.
It reaches new heights in its niche
And then it slowly bows its head in silence.
The highs feel good and lofty,
While the lows feel depressing and sad.
Is it worth it?
Is it worth the aggravation?
I am told that a writer must keep writing.
More books to dance around.
More highs and lows.
Should I keep doing this?
Will I keep doing this?
Yes, for now
As I wait for the next high.
Stairway to Heaven, Lello Bookshop, Portugal, 2015. Reinhard Görner. Lambda print
The stairway to heaven.
Where will it lead us?
To our family?
To happier times?
We could always dream.
Down I go
To the depths
Of my sadness.
I can’t go on.
I must rest.
Replenish my spirit.
Revitalize my soul.
I can turn around.
Go back up.
Try once more
To live my life.
First I will sleep.
cerebralust: my life rn
UNPREDICTABLE
Life can move along smoothly
Without bumps or surprises.
It can be so smooth that
It becomes boring,
Predictable.
The bumps are the spice of life.
The ups and downs.
The births and deaths.
The good with the bad.
We need the spice
To properly flavor the soup.
Enjoy the bumps.
Ride them with care.
Make them work for you.
WHERE DOES THIS STAIRCASE TAKE US?
IF WE FOLLOW IT DOWN,
WHERE WILL IT LEAD?
HOW FAR DOWN DOES IT GO?
OUR FEARS PLAY A VERY IMPORTANT ROLE
IN HOW WE VIEW THINGS.
