CAN I EVER LET GO?

A fellow author is compiling poetry from authors on her WordPress site. The topic is letting go. I sat down and wrote this poem about my brother. As tears fell from my eyes, I felt sad and happy at the same time. Sad that I will never see him again, and happy that I can share my love with others.

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Can I ever let go?

Can I ever let go of your touch?
At night, I dream of your fingers.
I can’t believe I miss you so much.
Your strokes through my hair still linger.

Can I ever let go of your eyes?
With great pride, you watched me grow.
I dearly pray for one last surprise.
You to return to me, I know.

I know my prayers won’t be answered.
My wishes never come true.
But I still have hopes to be answered.
And one day to see you too.

Can I ever let go of your humor?
Your wit and jokes had lightened my days.
I know this is much more than a rumor
That I’ll never have you brighten my days.

Days keep on passing.
But life must go on.
My heart is fasting
Each day it beats on.

Can I ever let go of you?
To my dearest, older brother,
My answer is a ‘no’ to you.
You weren’t only my brother.

You helped my mother to raise me.
You provided light for her blind eyes.
You’ll always be the best of me.
Until the day, I close my own eyes.

12 thoughts on “CAN I EVER LET GO?

  1. Dan Antion September 26, 2017 / 6:53 pm

    This is a very sweet tribute. I am sorry for your loss.

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    • Susanne Leist September 26, 2017 / 6:54 pm

      Thank you. It’s still hard for me to write about. Even after twenty-five years. I have to let the sadness go somehow.

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      • Dan Antion September 26, 2017 / 7:12 pm

        I can only try to imagine how hard that is.

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      • Susanne Leist September 26, 2017 / 7:41 pm

        I’m happy to hear that you never went through this pain. I can’t imagine what my parents had felt losing a son.

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      • Dan Antion September 27, 2017 / 5:47 am

        The closest I have come is losing my dad when he was 60. There’ve been so many times since I wish I could share stuff with him, ask his advice,hear his stories. Losing a loved one is never easy. A loss like yours is especially difficult.

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      • Susanne Leist September 27, 2017 / 4:06 pm

        Thank you for sharing your story. We realize too late that we never shared our thoughts with them. I never even told him I loved him. He knew. I know he did.

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      • Dan Antion September 27, 2017 / 4:18 pm

        I’m sure he did. Probably more certain than if you told him every day.

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    • Susanne Leist September 27, 2017 / 1:07 am

      I’m sorry for making you feel sad. That is the reason I usually keep my grief inside. But I wanted to write a poem for him that can be compiled with others. Misery loves company, so they say.

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